I dyed my hair!

in other news, i've lost 45 pounds... it feels good. happier, healthier me.

jobs and books

I have a job! I work at the Culinary Support Center Bakery on BYU Campus! I make donuts from 10 pm - 2 am every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. It's awesome. I love getting a paycheck. Hahaha... Other than that, nothing is new in my world. I'm doing great in all of my classes. I have five tests next week...not really looking forward to that! My life is really boring and I have nothing interesting to say but that's probably a good thing, haha. Oh, so I got a nook for Christmas and my goal is to read 18,000 pages this year. So far, I have read:

Looking for Alaska by John Green - 221 pages

Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut - 228 pages

The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger - 277 pages

Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut - 303 pages

Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut - 191 pages

The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand - 704 pages

The Book Thief by Markus Zusak - 576 pages

Anthem by Ayn Rand - 146 pages

total of pages so far: 2,646

pages to go: 15,354

:)

also, i've lost 45 pounds to date:

see the difference?

:)

Lately every day I've been content. I looooveee feeling this way. :) And I cut my hair all by myself!

ring out the old, ring in the new

I am back at BYU after spending two months at home in NC. It's difficult to adjust back into a very stressful environment, but I think I'm doing okay. I'm planning on finishing this semester, and spring and summer terms here and then transferring closer to home. That's the plan at least, but plans are still subject to change. I might just go ahead and finish school out here. Who knows. So far my classes are going well. I have 12 credits this semester. I have a job interview tomorrow (thanks McKenna). Things are going pretty well.

love love love all over her face

My friend Emily made a blog post about this song and I feel like it's a good one for me to listen to right now.

I have dropped out of BYU for the time being and I am back in Greensboro indefinitely. I don't really know whether or not I will return to BYU, or transfer somewhere closer to home, like UNCG.

I have my reasons for being home. I am trying to make the best of my time here. As of right now, I am registered for winter classes at BYU, but again - we'll see. I am taking this time to work on healing myself. To work on becoming a better person, to work on feeling better about myself as a person. To fix the things I don't like, and to embrace the things I do. To lose myself in the service of others. To figure out what I want out of my life on this earth. To start working towards that, whatever it may be.

You may not understand what is going on, but just know that it is good.

just came here to say...

i've hit my 20 lbs mark! woohoo! only 80 more to go...

Oh look, it's 4 a.m. again...

So, today will be my 8th day of school (it already feels like I've been in school much longer...uh-oh) and I can confidently say that it is going quite well. I really love all of my classes. I was a bit worried about my French class because I am now in INTERMEDIATE french (ooh la la) but I talked to my teacher and he seemed to think I am in a good position to do well in the class and I seem to think that I'm in a good position to do well in the class so it must be so. I LOVE having late classes! I am never taking morning classes again! Here are the things I love about my classes: I took AP stats in high school, so my statistics class is a cinch! Which is awesome. My french class is small and the people seem to be really great. I am currently working on reading the Book of Mormon in french. My sociology class - current social problems - is wonderful. I am a nerd and I love discussing the root causes of problems like racism, sexism, classism...every -ism you could possibly name. love it. My art history class is great! I remember a lot of the works from when I took AP art history in high school, and my teacher is a little dry but from what I hear his class is the easiest art history class. My LDS marriage and family class is pretty cool too. I like learning about doctrine in regards to marriage in the LDS church... since I grew up in a non-lds home, a lot of the things taught are new and exciting concepts to me! i can't wait to get married! (just kidding. if anything the class makes me feel woefully inadequate/like i am never going to get married.)

let's see, let's see. I officially am obsessed with online shopping. I need to quit. Also I need a job to support this awful habit of mine. I'm a sucker for the deals, what can I say.

Oh! I made a recent large purchase. It's a ... wait for it... NETBOOK. What is a netbook, you might ask? Well, let me tell you. It is the cutest computer in the history of mankind! It is teeny tiny and lightweight and PERFECT for taking notes in class! I adore my netbook. It's the best purchase I've ever purchased ever. I bought a HP mini. It's great. Seriously great.

Okay well, I don't know if I've formally introduced you, my readers, to my new roommates. So here goes:

Brittany #1, also called Taylor Swift: Brittany is a junior at BYU, is tall, beautiful, and SINGLE (if you are a boy reading this you should definitely get on that) and obsessed with Disney. She worked at Disneyworld this past summer and she also has a crush on Zac Efron.

Nadine: Nadine is British. She's from Preston, England and I love her a lot. I imitate her accent on the daily and our apartment has dubbed Mondays as "Nadine day" where we all talk in British accents all day when we're around her. She pretends to hate it but she actually loves it. Nadine spent her summer in Ghana volunteering at an orphanage. Nadine is waiting on a hottie missionary who only has 11 months left on his mission! Yay!

Laura: Laura is really cool! She's artsy and dresses in a bohemian-inspired style. Laura is a returned missionary and served her mission in San Fernando, California Spanish Speaking. She is super sweet and loves to give hugs. She just transferred to BYU from Utah State.

Brittany #2, also called Butters: Butters is petite and sweet and funny. Her laugh is out of this world and she is the most precious human being on the planet. Butters also served a mission, in the same mission as Laura! They were never companions, but they lived together for a transfer. Butters is adorable and has many friends.

Nicole: Nicole is my room roommate and she has incredible amounts of stuff. She loves animals (current pet count: 2 fishbowls, 1 aquarium, a turtle, and 2 rats) and she is obsessed with Star Wars. She even has a real live lightsaber! She also loves music and has a keyboard and four guitars.

So basically I have the coolest roommates ever, you should all be jealous, etc. I've been super busy but I am truly happy and excited for what's to come this semester. I'll make sure to update if anything important happens.... haha.

Catch ya on the flipside...

LJ