Monday, March 29, 2010

Gooood Weekend

This weekend my best friend Megan came down from Logan, UT. We were both pretty broke, and worried about what we could do for cheap. Friday night, we went to our friend McKenna's bridal shower (she's getting married in June). Then, we picked up The Princess and the Frog and New Moon at redbox. We went home to my apartment and watched those and then fell asleep. Saturday, we got up and drove to Spanish Fork, UT for the Hare Krishna Holi Festival of Colors. It was awesome!


This video shows what it was like to be in the crowd. The color cloud lasted for about two minutes, and it was very fun but inhaling the chalk was not so fun. When we blew our noses, our boogers were purple. We got a kick out of that. After the color festival, we went to our friend Lorraine's house, watched The Errand of Angels, and slept over. This morning, we got up, went to church, and went to Megan's roommate Reannon's house for dinner and to drop Meg off, because Reannon was her ride back to Logan. All in all, a very eventful weekend.

Here's some pictures from the past couple weeks:

my roommates, amberlea and aubrey, and i dancing to irish music at a St. Patrick's Day Party.


the HUGE bonfire at aforementioned party.


myself with a bunch of gents. as you can tell, i am clearly popular with the men.


a baby bonfire that we had up in the canyon.


one of the bridal shower games was to make a gown out of toilet paper - ours won.


our gown, the bride-to-be judge, and the competition


we also made masks - the bride to be is very into theater.


we celebrated with martinellis.


a few weeks ago, we had a church date night that was superhero-themed. my partner and i went as teenage mutant ninja turtles - donatello and michelangelo.


the temple was beautiful. and there were SO MANY PEOPLE.


crazy amounts of people.


seriously beautiful building. and it was a great day also, weather-wise.


here we are all clean, taking a shuttle bus to the temple.


and here we are after a couple hours. this was before the big color cloud though - i didn't really take pictures of that.

the end!

Friday, March 26, 2010

This Week

Dear this week,
you were horrible. you made me a miserable sick little girl. okay, maybe that is the mono i possibly have speaking. i keep sleeping through my alarm until 3pm, when i've missed all of my classes. THIS IS NOT OKAY. also, my head hurts, i have a fever, and i am sleepy without being tired. go away life. it's okay though, i forgive you. i know this weekend oughta make up for it.
love, me


I am 99% sure I have mono because this girl that I know has mono and like a month ago we shared a drink and we have the exact same symptoms, blah blah blah. GREAT. Other than that I am fine and dandy. I sliced my finger open this week, took and failed a chemistry test, took a french test that I don't feel positively about, and slept through a whole 'lotta classes. woe is me. However, my bestest best best BEST AWESOME THE BEST friend Megan is coming for the whole weekend and that just like....makes my life. Also we have a cool relief society activity this weekend, and McKenna's bridal shower is tomorrow, and the festival of colors is Saturday...so there will be plenty to do. Plenty to do indeed. I am so discouraged with chemistry! I keep doing worse and worse on the tests. I NEED an A, HELLO. Also I prayed before I took it so that should have made it so I at least didn't fail. BUT NO. IT DIDN'T HELP ONE LICK. Ah well. Maybe I'll get into med school based on.....charisma. Because even if I am dumb, at least I'm interesting with good stories. RIGHT? right.

Monday, March 22, 2010

This is my favorite poem - I think it's haunting.

The Thing Is - Ellen Bass
The thing is...

to love life, to love it even
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you've held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.


this is me procrastinating. I admit, I procrastinate with the worst of them. I drew a map of the world in one night for my human geography class one time.

if I say so myself, and I do, I am actually really great at working well under pressure. I capitalize on my time, get organized, and get down to business (just like those Huns). These skills are going to make me a great surgeon one day, I am sure of it. I have skilled hands and I don't panic when things turn for the worse and I make executive decisions and I am confident. But if I want to pass college without spending $500 on energy drinks, things have got to change! I anticipate that I will be pulling an all-nighter tonight. Why? Well, there were these modules for my international health class that I read, but I skipped the testing part. So I have to re-read them because I've forgotten the information. Each one takes about 2 hours...and I need six. By tomorrow. Not only that, I have a french exam that I haven't even started studying for. As well as a chemistry exam. It's tricky stuff, this procrastination business. No matter how much I plan ahead, I cannot force myself to do things until they're due! It's a problem. It's going to catch up with me and bite me in the butt one day. Unfortunately, until then, I will keep on procrastinating...

I am he as you are he as you are me and we are all together

Wow. I feel like a lot of people are being hypocritical in regards to "Obamacare". One of the things that drives me crazy about BYU is that you'll find a lot of people who are caught up in the material parts of life but still claim to ascribe to the Mormon rejection of material goods. They reject "socialism", but support the "law of consecration". They say, "Every action has consequences! Why should I help people who put themselves into a certain situation? They have to deal with those consequences!" That attitude makes me so angry I can't even begin to describe how I feel.
With regards to national healthcare:
1. Except for in rare instances, people get sick and need medical attention through no fault of their own.
2. Health should be considered a human right, not a privelege. I could go on about this forever. I don't know when someone decided that a person's health could be determined by the balance of their bank account, but the mindset that it isn't a human right is downright idiotic.
3. Money should not determine how worthy you are to receive healthcare. That's ludicrous.
4. In one of the richest countries in the world, people should:
A. - not be denied the BASIC right of healthcare, and
B. - not have to go bankrupt after receiving treatment
5. Obama's plan isn't even comprehensive. Countries such as Sweden have much more comprehensive plans designated to suit every need of the population.
6. To Mormons - here's what the Book of Mormon has to say:
Mosiah 4: 16-23
16 And also, ye yourselves will succor those that stand in need of your succor; ye will administer of your substance unto him that standeth in need; and ye will not suffer that the beggar putteth up his petition to you in vain, and turn him out to perish.
17 Perhaps thou shalt say: The man has brought upon himself his misery; therefore I will stay my hand, and will not give unto him of my food, nor impart unto him of my substance that he may not suffer, for his punishments are just—
18 But I say unto you, O man, whosoever doeth this the same hath great cause to repent; and except he repenteth of that which he hath done he perisheth forever, and hath no interest in the kingdom of God.
19 For behold, are we not all beggars? Do we not all depend upon the same Being, even God, for all the substance which we have, for both food and raiment, and for gold, and for silver, and for all the riches which we have of every kind?
20 And behold, even at this time, ye have been calling on his name, and begging for a remission of your sins. And has he suffered that ye have begged in vain? Nay; he has poured out his Spirit upon you, and has caused that your hearts should be filled with joy, and has caused that your mouths should be stopped that ye could not find utterance, so exceedingly great was your joy.
21 And now, if God, who has created you, on whom you are dependent for your lives and for all that ye have and are, doth grant unto you whatsoever ye ask that is right, in faith, believing that ye shall receive, O then, how ye ought to impart of the substance that ye have one to another.
22 And if ye judge the man who putteth up his petition to you for your substance that he perish not, and condemn him, how much more just will be your condemnation for withholding your substance, which doth not belong to you but to God, to whom also your life belongeth; and yet ye put up no petition, nor repent of the thing which thou hast done.
23 I say unto you, wo be unto that man, for his substance shall perish with him; and now, I say these things unto those who are rich as pertaining to the things of this world.

This scripture even addresses the argument I mentioned above. And for those who say, well government mandating this law is taking away our agency -- no it isn't. You choose to pay taxes. Yeah, you'll get punished if you don't, but still. You're exercising your agency by paying taxes. I could say BYU takes away my agency because I have to read my scriptures for my Book of Mormon class to get a good grade. Regardless, I am CHOOSING to read my scriptures. I will fail the class if I don't, but I'm still exercising my agency. The thing is, even if it's law, you do it for the right reasons. And that's your own personal problem, not the government's.

I can't handle selfish people. When people talk about how their taxes are going to go up, and how people who don't even deserve health care are going to get it, it makes me sick. It makes me want to shake them and hope to cause permanent brain damage. It shows me how many people in the world can't see outside of themselves. I know it sucks to have to pay bills. I know it sucks to feel like other people aren't contributing as much as you, aren't working as hard as you, aren't suffering as much as you are. It sucks! It really does. But our purpose on Earth is to do everything we can to be like Christ -- and as we all know, Christ didn't judge. He didn't compare himself to others. He didn't sit there and whine about how He had all this crappy responsibility to help people who didn't even "deserve" it. He lived with a faith that things would work out. That if he fulfilled his responsibility on Earth, that our Heavenly Father would sort it all out in the end. This is not about you. This is about everyone - we are all children of God. To deny your fellow children of God access to something as basic as healthcare is just plain wrong. The worth of souls is great in the sight of God...we all have worth. I am not worth less than you just because I don't make six figures.
According to the declaration of independence, we all have a right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. The pursuit of happiness can be severely impeded when access to healthcare is denied. On Maslow's hierarchy of needs (the steps to success/self-actualization), health is one of the core needs that must be taken care of before any others. I wish people recognized this real need in our society. I wish people could understand that we're all in this together. Government tries to do things that are for the greater good, and this healthcare bill is one of them. Perspective is an interesting friend.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

I am bad at this whole "blogging" thing.

Let's see...not much has happened recently, as per usual. I want to get involved but I don't know how! I'm pretty sure I've finalized my Spring/Summer classes, which is GREAT. I am really excited for them. I'm still looking for a job. I've put in about 100 applications, and gotten 2 interviews, and 0 job offers. c'est frustrant. My computer crashed out of the blue, it made me a very sad woman. I can't afford to have it fixed, so I've dragged out my old trusty Dell from high school. It works fine, except for the unfortunate fact that the battery is dead so it can't survive like 2 seconds without being plugged in. Financially, things have been really rough lately. I've only been able to make minimum payments on my credit card, my debit account has been overdrafted since the beginning of february, all my medical bills are past due and my car needs a new battery among other things and has ceased to be reliable. It's hard with no job but I know that I'm doing everything I can and that something will come along, even if my credit is killed in the meantime. Honestly there is nothing else I can do...luckily, I stocked up on dry goods, so my food supply has lasted me since January, with only a few small trips for perishables in between. Everything happens for a reason, maybe this is God's way of making me the most frugal person ever. I am grateful that my father has provided me with great health insurance...I can't imagine what I would do without it, that's for sure. Nothing BIG has happened recently medical-wise... I have an appointment with the urologist in a month and we will hopefully find out the reason for the kidney stones I have been getting. I sprained/possibly hairline-fractured (the doctor was really vague) my midfoot, so I've been saddled with a big ol' boot. My endocrinologist called me to say that my hormone levels are out of wack (as always) but instead of congenital adrenal hyperplasia, which she had hypothesized was the problem, it's actually polycystic ovarian syndrome...which I already knew I had. So I guess she'll start treatment for that soon. Oh and as far as my back goes, there are no herniated discs! The neurosurgeon said that the amount of scarring in my lumbar section is causing my shunt to grate on my nerve endings that float around back there, causing me back pain. There's nothing I can do about it, except for get physical therapy. Honestly though, I feel great. I'm happy and I feel successful. I'm reading the Book of Mormon from start to finish because my bishop challenged me to. I'm really glad he did; so far it's been great. It's wonderful to get back to the basics. Conference is next month, I'm excited.
Anyways I know this was all really boring, but just know that I am doing wonderfully.

Besos! Bises! Kisses!
(this is my new favorite way to say goodbye...it drives my friends crazy.)